Hard

Hard. That's what this week will be for me, no doubt. See, in case you haven't heard, I am entering the outside working world again, starting Thursday. In some small ways, I am excited, partially because I knew I would have to do it sometime, and partially because job hunting sucks. Sorry, it just does. So anyways, notice I say "small" ways. Because in every other possible way, I want to stay home with Abbie and raise her and be here with her all the time. But one thing I do know is this - when I am working outside the home, I do not take the time with her for granted. I do not lose patience with her nearly as easily, and I truly do cherish each minute. Please know that I am not saying this about other Mom's, I am speaking of myself here. So in that way, maybe it's not all bad. I still really believe that for me a mix of outside work and being at home is ideal, but as I've said before, we aren't quite there yet. So for now, I will be content with the situation given to me, because as a friend reminded me this morning, God is most glorified in us when we are most satisfied in Him. For now, I will be satisfied.

And on a lighter note, I MUST get some drawer locks today. As I was writing this post, Abbie has retrieved a lighter, some neosporin lip balm, and as I type this she has matches in her hands. (She is in Wes's fishing desk). Gotta run!!